Today I decided to get out of the house and show my mom and the kids a good time, no matter how crappy I felt. Aric reminded me that today is Friday the 13th. I second guessed leaving my house with the luck I was having lately, but decided I'll take my chances. I still have major cabin fever.
Since it is Friday the 13th, I'll share a tidbit of trivia about Aric. He is very superstitious. Once when we were still dating a black cat ran out in the road in front of us. He did a U-turn in the road and proceeded to take the most out-of-the-way route just so we wouldn't cross it's path. I think it's kinda funny, it doesn't bother me. He doesn't have many quirks, so this makes him feel more human to me. He hates throwing out mirrors (doesn't want them to break). I actually did break a mirror once... maybe that's why I'm having such bad luck! I vaguely remember Aric warning me. When was that?
My poor mom has not really been able to do anything fun since she has been here (3weeks now). I was hoping I would be better by now and we would be able to do something really fun, like go up to Minneapolis, but that's not happening. It seems like we have had the worst weather since my mom has been here: hail and major storms with serious threat of tornado's. Today was the first beautiful summer day I have been able to enjoy, so we went to Quarry Hill nature center. For those who don't live here in Rochester it is a tiny nature center, but it's free. Every kid I know loves going there. You can spend a half hour, or a full day, depending on what you do. There's great hiking and a pond to fish in. The kids had a blast and enjoyed looking at all the fish and turtles in the aquariums. We checked out the bees making honey, and tried to spot a few birds. We then checked out their library and Hannah would not let go of this cute little book about baby animals, and Brecklen found the original Curious George story about how the Man with the yellow hat found George. It was similar to the movie, but much more shocking. Curious George was actually put in prison. I couldn't stop reading it. It was quite a page turner! I didn't know you could check out books there, but you can, so we did. I can't wait to read the Curious George book again to the kids. It is quite a read.
Then we decided to go outside and feed the fish in the pond. We brought some bread for the fish, but they weren't eating it. I guess I'll have to bring some better snacks for them next time. We did see some huge fish and a very large turtle that we didn't know lived there. I was sorry I didn't bring my camera, but I'm a little out of the habit. As we were leaving there some kids taking pictures of a cute painted turtle named Squeeky that Quarry Hill was releasing in the pond, it wasn't painted, that's the kind of turtle it was. Apparently someone found it in the road and brought it to Quarry Hill. Now I know where to take all of those stray turtles that are so abundant around here. I've seen many frogs, but not turtles. Brecklen got to touch Squeeky and that made his week.
After Quarry Hill Brecklen had a play date with his friend Sydney. So we dropped Brecklen off at her house. About a half hour after I home the phone rings and Stacy, Sydney's mom is on the phone. She says "Your not going to let Brecklen come over anymore." I asked why without trying to sound alarmed, but really wondering which one of our kids is going to the Emergency Room. Then she says they are pretending to get married. HUGE relief that no one is going to the ER. Then I started to laugh. They were pretending to get married in the temple, and were planning the whole thing as she was calling me. I was so glad she called, it was adorable. They play so differently with each other, because they're the opposite sex and it is so funny to hear the things they come up with.
To add to the story. A couple months ago we past by Sydney's house and Brecklen pointed at her house (he knows where all his friends live), and he wanted to play with her. I told him that she's out of town and won't be back for a while. He was really sad, but understood, and I told him that when she gets back we'll schedule a playdate. It's been a while since Brecklen has seen her, and I didn't realize how much he missed her. Sydney is Brecklen's first friend ever. They have been friends since the day we moved to Rochester, and I think they have quite a bond. They can go for long stretches (probably too long, due to my lack of scheduling) of time without seeing each other, and they just pick up where they left off, like they saw each other yesterday.
The morning after we past by Sydney's home Brecklen comes into my room and tells me he had a dream. I love hearing his dreams, they are always so interesting and creative. He dreamed about Sydney. They were getting married and she was going to be his wife. I couldn't believe he actually had a dream about marriage. It was so cute that he actually dreamed about marrying Sydney. His dream seemed so clear to him, it wasn't any girl, it was Sydney. It was funny to hear him talking about marriage, but it was so sweet and innocent.
Then a few weeks later he had another dream about them getting married. I emailed Stacy, Sydney's mom, about it. It was just so darn cute, I had to tell her! I told Stacy I could just imagine them meeting at BYU someday and finally realizing that they are long lost childhood friends, they start dating, and get married. How cute would that be! I won't get my hopes up about a 4 year old's dream, but what a cute dream it is!
I just realized that nothing bad happened to me today. Actually it was a nice day. Maybe my luck is changing!
Friday, June 13, 2008
My month of Hell
Today is my one month mark for coming down with the most random illness ever. I am still recooperating, although doing much, much better.
For those sick of looking at my raccoon picture, here is my adventure of the last month. Forewarning, it is going to be an epic, because some day when I look back on this I will wonder if it really was that bad, and I can say yes, it was, but it also could have been so much worse-I don't have a terminal illness, atleast I think this will go away. First of all I'm still alive (not that I would have died from this, but sometimes it felt that way), second, I can stand on my own two feet, still dizzy and nauseous, but I can stand, although my mom can say I'm not a very nice person right now. I am grumpy from feeling crappy, it still is uncomfortable to stand and pretend that I'm all there. But it is nice to interact with my kids again, although I feel we have some role reversal going on. Brecklen will hold out his hand and slowly guide me to what he wants me to see. He has really grown up, and I am so proud of him for that.
A month ago I was cleaning my house in a rage as I sometimes do when no one seems to be bothering me. To back up, I was feeling very sick all day. Threw up many times that morning, chalked it up to morning sickness, probably still was. I was supposed to do some errands, since the kids were at preschool, but decided to treat myself to a pedicure that was given to me for a birthday present. In hindsight that was the best thing I ever did. I usually don't do stuff like that for myself and it felt sooo good. Although I never understood a word anyone said to me since the moment I walked in to get the pedicure. What a strange place, I felt like I was in a foreign country.
Anyway back to the cleaning.... I was feeling a little better in the evening, so I decided to clean my house. I always do so in a panic because I never know how long I will have to be left alone, or how long before my nausea catches up with me and I'm forced to stop. I was putting clothes away in Brecklen's room sitting on his bed when all of the sudden I felt this overwhelming sense of nausea and dizziness. I ran to the bathroom to take a Zofran (I owe my life to this saint of anti-nausea medicine), and just layed on the couch. I felt awful! I waited for the Zofran to kick in but it never did. Aric took the kids on a walk and I declined to go. When they came back 2 hours later I was still in the same position. I tried to help give the kids a bath but I was useless. I didn't know what was wrong with me. But little did I know the worst was yet to come. That whole night I tossed and turned all feeling very dizzy.
About 5:30am I woke up and opened my eyes and my eyes wouldn't stop moving and the world was spinning very rapidly. I woke up Aric after a couple of minutes. I thought I was going to lose my eyesight because my eyes just wouldn't quit moving, which I found out was a nystagmas (jumpy eyes). That was really scary, I was freaking out. I tried to walk and didn't get anywhere. Right back to bed. Aric got up to look into it. I have never been so happy that he is a doctor, maybe all those student loans actually will pay off! Meanwhile I am laying in bed covering my eyes from all light so that my eyes can't look at anything so they would stop moving and trying not moving my head at all so the world would stop spinning from all the vertigo. This was the lowest point of my life. I knew something was very,very wrong. I prayed so hard that I would be able to see my kids again and was trying to picture their little faces. I was also afraid that it wasn't just my eyesight and that it is possible that I am going crazy. Why would the world spin like this?! If it never stopped then I was going to go crazy! No joke. After praying for what seemed like forever, I finally found some peace that I knew everything was going to be alright eventually. I heard a voice in my mind "God healeth and dwelleth in your heart." It wasn't loud, but it was very clear. I also knew that it wasn't me saying it to myself because A. I don't talk like that and B. the Spirit said in YOUR heart. If I said I to myself I would have said something like God will heal me, not something so eloquent out of an old English novel when I wasn't even coherent to myself. So I just kept repeating it over and over in my mind to focus, and I didn't want to forget it.
Aric came back with some diagnoses. I was surprised to hear that it wasn't my eyes (or my brain for that matter), but my ears. One diagnosis was Vestibular Neuritis, a virus which attacks the ear causing inflammation (which is what I have), the other was BPPV, which essentially is a like having a kidney stone in your ear, throwing you off balance. They both have very similar presentation. So we hoped for the better of the two, BPPV, which is treatable (although not at all fun) by putting the "stone" back where it belongs in the ear canal. We decided to attempt the "repositioning" by doing a series of head movements. This was the most excruciating part. It technically wasn't painful, but nauseating to the worst degree. I threw up ALOT. The dizziness was overwhelming. I had to move my head to one side, then the other and then lay back and then turn over. I had no control of my body, I was a dead weight. Aric basically had to do this all for me, making sure I didn't hurt myself in the process. We had to do this multiple times to make sure it worked. So I guess to explain how I felt, imagine someone spinning you around over, and over, and over, but NEVER stopping. And then on top of that you can't stop your eyes from moving side to side, it's like my brain really thinks someone is preverse enough to spin me around forever and ever on a boat, and my eyes are just trying to follow the world litterally spinning before my eyes. Now see how sick you feel. Yeah sounds not so fun. It really makes me sick again thinking about how bad that was.
Since the vertigo didn't getting better, and I was severely dehydrated because I hadn't kept food down for 24 hours, we finally decided to head to the ER. Thanks to our wonderful neighbors who happened to be home on a saturday afternoon, Aric drove me to the ER while the neighbors watched our kids and fed them lunch on a moments notice.
At the ER they had lots of trouble getting an IV started so I told Aric to do it. While the nurse was gone he started the IV and she came back in just in time to help him tape it in place. He told her "Not bad for a Plumber, huh?" I wish I could have seen her face. Aric said she just looked wide eyed, started the IV meds and left. She didn't say a thing to anyone, everyone thought someone else started it, she was probably worried this would come back to haunt her. Little did she know Aric was a doctor in the hospital. Atleast Aric got me to laugh. He's always go for a laugh. The ER decided that we should follow-up with ENT, because they thought it may be BPPV. They ruled out anything central like a tumor, or stroke. That is always a joy when they bring up words like that, but atleast they ruled it out. I was finally keeping food down so they discharged me.
Monday I had an appointment with ENT at the May Clinic. It is nice to know people. Aric has rotated on ENT service, so he knows most of the department. And we have 2 of the ENT residents in our ward who are our friends. So it was easy to get a same day appointment. Thanks guys! I got to see first hand why Mayo is so great, so many specialties in one place, such great service. Aric pulled up, someone was there to bring a wheelchair for me. I never really paid attention to those people standing outside that seemed more like doormen at a hotel. As I sit in the lobby waiting for Aric to park to take me to my appointment (we declined the door-to-door service) I listened to beautiful music on the grand piano. Someone old guy tried to talk to me, but I decided that it was not worth turning my head and opening my eyes and possibly throwing up. I could feel everyone staring at me. I know I looked horrible, I just pulled my hat down lower and tried not to move. We checked in at the ENT counter, and then sat down in a corner. Aric said I looked like the sickest person there. Hurray! It was excruciating sitting up, the vertigo was terrible, I just wanted my bed. I still hadn't opened my eyes much since Saturday, so I just clutched my barf bucket we took from the ER hoping I wouldn't need it out in the lobby. I just wanted to get this over with. We finally got in and talked to our resident friends. One of our friends, Doug H., just patted my head at the sight of how pathetic I looked. To sum up the conversation, the Doctors and I decided no steroids at first because of the baby. If I didn't get better, than maybe more tests, rethink meds. They thought it would be about two weeks for me to be all better, such that I would be driving- I knew that I would have to be all better before I drove, the people on the road don't need to suffer too. A month tops. But the likelihood of that seemed impossible at the time.
So for about a week Aric ditched medical school and took care of me full-time. He feed me in bed, wiped the crumbs off my face, brushed my teeth, and seriously had to drag me to the bathroom. It was a very humbling experience. Not one I would be happy to repeat. But he was awesome. I never had to ask for anything he always anticipated what I needed. Thanks Aric you are truly amazing. All those muscles aren't just for show. Brecklen and Hannah would sometimes join in a feed me too. I didn't know if I wanted them to do that, I think it ended up being good for Brecklen, he was so sweet. Thanks to our wonderful, wonderful friends, Aric was able to take care of me and the house without the kids during the day. It was so nice to not have to worry about them. I knew they were having a much better time at their friends houses then they would have had at home. Thanks to Darin and Beth, Lydia, Janee, Jen G., Ann, and Tonya. You guys are amazing friends and without you our family would have fallen apart. Thanks for the dinners and watching our kids ALL day every day that crazy week. You came to our rescue! I am your babysitter for life, or for as long as we live in Rochester.
After a week things had not progressed quickly at all. The vertigo was as strong and fast as ever, I still couldn't walk anywhere, except stumble to the bathroom on my own and feed myself. It's ok to laugh, it's funny, but it that was big progress for me. We decided that we had used our friends for too long and it was time to call in the reinforcements, my mother. I wanted me friends to still like me when this was all over. So we called my mom Friday, and she was here Saturday. Aric couldn't have been more relieved. He was, I'm sure, exhausted from a long week of taking care of everything, and truly needed a break. He had medical school finals coming up next week and needed to pass so that the med school couldn't complain that he ditched class.
It was quite an adjustment for the kids though. Hannah rebelled alot, didn't want my mom to do anything for her, but my mom just plugged along like it didn't phase her. Although Aric kept the house spotless, I have to say it was cleaner then when I'm in charge, my mom had a weeks worth of laundry to do.
That second week I was making short trips to the living room so my kids wouldn't forget they had a mom. I was reading, although it was hard to focus. My vision is still off, everything is sort of blurry. But then it is hard to focus when the world is spinning. It was getting frustrating because the doctors expected me to be well and driving by now. I have only made it outside of my house to go to see the doctor, and then only being carried to the car, and by a wheelchair to get around. Not on my own two feet yet. I could stumble around my house, with the use of walls. At the end of my second week I visit my Obstetrician. She's like my girlfriend, so it was nice to see her. She thought baby would be okay, but has never treated anyone with Vestibular Neuritis. Aric couldn't find anything published on the subject either. That didn't make me feel good. So it's pretty uncommon to get this at all, and even rarer, perhaps never happened (or most likely no has ever taken the time to publish) that anyone as fortunate as myself has comedown with this while pregnant. I really do have incredible luck(for the unfortunate). It was interesting going back to the Mayo Clinic in a wheelchair. I didn't get to see anyone staring at me last time, but this time people would look at me and I could see what they were thinking. Why is she in a wheelchair? What's wrong with her? Everyone moves out of the way for you and gives you the look of pity. It was quite a social experiment. I told Aric his med school class should do this to see what it's really like to be on the other side of things. Aric had his own fun. He kept flipping my chair up and when he took me outside to sit and wait for him he asked me if I needed a smoke. I of course laughed because it was so random and declined. There were a few people outside with us and am sure were wondering why this pregnant girl sitting in a wheelchair would dare to smoke. Good thing she didn't, no wonder she's in a wheelchair! I just had to laugh because first of all I don't smoke, just in case any of you doubted, but I was picturing what it would look like if I did.
My OB doc approved steroids. Said baby would be fine. So we contacted ENT and they wrote the prescription. Things didn't get better. Actually they got worse, so we started to worry that it could be something more serious. They kicked up the steroids a notch and that seemed to do the trick, after about a week. Slowly things started to finally progress. I was able to move around more, but not quite able to go outside and walk around. During this time Hannah came down with the stomach flu. That was really fun. I couldn't help out much, but Aric and my mom had to clean up lots of throw up. I was REALLY glad my mom was here to help me with that.
By the beginning of my third week, I was going stir crazy. I thought I knew what cabin fever meant living through many Minnesota winters. I was ready to jump out the window by this time just to be outside. I really just wanted to go outside and run around with my kids. Aric had a Chief Dinner coming up and it was my goal to be there. This is pretty much a graduation of the 6 year Oral Surgery program. It is not something to miss. I had missed out on alot these past few weeks and wanted a life again. So I went to the mall with my mom and the kids to go looking for some flat shoes so I atleast wouldn't fall on my face while trying to look presentable to Aric's work friends and colleagues. This was the first time in 3 weeks I walked outside of my house on my own to feet. It was momentous, at least to me. It was not really fun being at the mall, though. Turning around and looking for my kids all the time was very nauseating. I was so tired! I guess sitting in your bed doesn't do wonders for your circulation. We had a fun time at the Chief Dinner, and I didn't fall or make a fool of myself. I just tried to sit as much as possible. It was really nice to get out of the house and have a great meal too!
Well, then things took a turn for the worse. Talk about kicking someone when they are really down. I really love the kiddie play area in the mall, but it is full of germs, and sometimes we get really sick after playing there. This was no exception. I don't know what it is about Rochester, but illnesses seem to move through this city like a wave. You just have to wait for your turn to get hit. Early Monday morning (1:30am) Brecklen and I got hit with the stomach flu. I heard Brecklen at the top of the stairs so I came up the stairs to see what was the matter and stepped in his vomit. I took him to the bathroom to help him throw up more, went to clean the other vomit up that I stepped in, while seriously trying to not throw up myself. I didn't want to clean that up too. I was still in my "drunken" stupor of dizziness and not able to move around well, this took alot of effort. I go get him settled after ripping his gross sheets off and then I make a bed on the floor in his room for me. Trash buckets for both of us. We both threw up about every half hour for many hours. Brecklen eventually stopped throwing up, but not me. I kept throwing up into the day. Aric had to actually go into work that day, but thankfully my mom was there to take care of us all and saved the day again. Brecklen just sat around and didn't eat anything, but I was on my death bed. It was bad. I couldn't eat or drink and was getting worse by the hour. I layed in my bed all day, not doing a thing and I couldn't sleep. By the time Aric go home he was worried, not much worries him. He was about to take me to the ER again to get IV fluids, but he would just try one thing. I had one more lingual Zofran ( my saving grace). You just put it under your tongue and it dissolves. It helps keep you from throwing up so you can eat. Aric was able to keep me from throwing up my water by lots of distraction, and in time I was able to hold water and food down. That was close, we made it out of the woods. It set me back a bit on my recovery as a whole, but I was glad to be over the flu. So here I am a few days later doing better. Today I think I am going to try to go outside with my kids and walk around. My mom is going to be here another week. I hope I will be all better by then, but I think it's just going to take a long time for me to feel completely normal. But at least for the time I can walk outside with my kids and watch them run around. I don't want to miss out on them growing up.
Thank you to so many who helped me and also prayed for me during this time. It was much appreciated, and your kindness won't be forgotten.
For those sick of looking at my raccoon picture, here is my adventure of the last month. Forewarning, it is going to be an epic, because some day when I look back on this I will wonder if it really was that bad, and I can say yes, it was, but it also could have been so much worse-I don't have a terminal illness, atleast I think this will go away. First of all I'm still alive (not that I would have died from this, but sometimes it felt that way), second, I can stand on my own two feet, still dizzy and nauseous, but I can stand, although my mom can say I'm not a very nice person right now. I am grumpy from feeling crappy, it still is uncomfortable to stand and pretend that I'm all there. But it is nice to interact with my kids again, although I feel we have some role reversal going on. Brecklen will hold out his hand and slowly guide me to what he wants me to see. He has really grown up, and I am so proud of him for that.
A month ago I was cleaning my house in a rage as I sometimes do when no one seems to be bothering me. To back up, I was feeling very sick all day. Threw up many times that morning, chalked it up to morning sickness, probably still was. I was supposed to do some errands, since the kids were at preschool, but decided to treat myself to a pedicure that was given to me for a birthday present. In hindsight that was the best thing I ever did. I usually don't do stuff like that for myself and it felt sooo good. Although I never understood a word anyone said to me since the moment I walked in to get the pedicure. What a strange place, I felt like I was in a foreign country.
Anyway back to the cleaning.... I was feeling a little better in the evening, so I decided to clean my house. I always do so in a panic because I never know how long I will have to be left alone, or how long before my nausea catches up with me and I'm forced to stop. I was putting clothes away in Brecklen's room sitting on his bed when all of the sudden I felt this overwhelming sense of nausea and dizziness. I ran to the bathroom to take a Zofran (I owe my life to this saint of anti-nausea medicine), and just layed on the couch. I felt awful! I waited for the Zofran to kick in but it never did. Aric took the kids on a walk and I declined to go. When they came back 2 hours later I was still in the same position. I tried to help give the kids a bath but I was useless. I didn't know what was wrong with me. But little did I know the worst was yet to come. That whole night I tossed and turned all feeling very dizzy.
About 5:30am I woke up and opened my eyes and my eyes wouldn't stop moving and the world was spinning very rapidly. I woke up Aric after a couple of minutes. I thought I was going to lose my eyesight because my eyes just wouldn't quit moving, which I found out was a nystagmas (jumpy eyes). That was really scary, I was freaking out. I tried to walk and didn't get anywhere. Right back to bed. Aric got up to look into it. I have never been so happy that he is a doctor, maybe all those student loans actually will pay off! Meanwhile I am laying in bed covering my eyes from all light so that my eyes can't look at anything so they would stop moving and trying not moving my head at all so the world would stop spinning from all the vertigo. This was the lowest point of my life. I knew something was very,very wrong. I prayed so hard that I would be able to see my kids again and was trying to picture their little faces. I was also afraid that it wasn't just my eyesight and that it is possible that I am going crazy. Why would the world spin like this?! If it never stopped then I was going to go crazy! No joke. After praying for what seemed like forever, I finally found some peace that I knew everything was going to be alright eventually. I heard a voice in my mind "God healeth and dwelleth in your heart." It wasn't loud, but it was very clear. I also knew that it wasn't me saying it to myself because A. I don't talk like that and B. the Spirit said in YOUR heart. If I said I to myself I would have said something like God will heal me, not something so eloquent out of an old English novel when I wasn't even coherent to myself. So I just kept repeating it over and over in my mind to focus, and I didn't want to forget it.
Aric came back with some diagnoses. I was surprised to hear that it wasn't my eyes (or my brain for that matter), but my ears. One diagnosis was Vestibular Neuritis, a virus which attacks the ear causing inflammation (which is what I have), the other was BPPV, which essentially is a like having a kidney stone in your ear, throwing you off balance. They both have very similar presentation. So we hoped for the better of the two, BPPV, which is treatable (although not at all fun) by putting the "stone" back where it belongs in the ear canal. We decided to attempt the "repositioning" by doing a series of head movements. This was the most excruciating part. It technically wasn't painful, but nauseating to the worst degree. I threw up ALOT. The dizziness was overwhelming. I had to move my head to one side, then the other and then lay back and then turn over. I had no control of my body, I was a dead weight. Aric basically had to do this all for me, making sure I didn't hurt myself in the process. We had to do this multiple times to make sure it worked. So I guess to explain how I felt, imagine someone spinning you around over, and over, and over, but NEVER stopping. And then on top of that you can't stop your eyes from moving side to side, it's like my brain really thinks someone is preverse enough to spin me around forever and ever on a boat, and my eyes are just trying to follow the world litterally spinning before my eyes. Now see how sick you feel. Yeah sounds not so fun. It really makes me sick again thinking about how bad that was.
Since the vertigo didn't getting better, and I was severely dehydrated because I hadn't kept food down for 24 hours, we finally decided to head to the ER. Thanks to our wonderful neighbors who happened to be home on a saturday afternoon, Aric drove me to the ER while the neighbors watched our kids and fed them lunch on a moments notice.
At the ER they had lots of trouble getting an IV started so I told Aric to do it. While the nurse was gone he started the IV and she came back in just in time to help him tape it in place. He told her "Not bad for a Plumber, huh?" I wish I could have seen her face. Aric said she just looked wide eyed, started the IV meds and left. She didn't say a thing to anyone, everyone thought someone else started it, she was probably worried this would come back to haunt her. Little did she know Aric was a doctor in the hospital. Atleast Aric got me to laugh. He's always go for a laugh. The ER decided that we should follow-up with ENT, because they thought it may be BPPV. They ruled out anything central like a tumor, or stroke. That is always a joy when they bring up words like that, but atleast they ruled it out. I was finally keeping food down so they discharged me.
Monday I had an appointment with ENT at the May Clinic. It is nice to know people. Aric has rotated on ENT service, so he knows most of the department. And we have 2 of the ENT residents in our ward who are our friends. So it was easy to get a same day appointment. Thanks guys! I got to see first hand why Mayo is so great, so many specialties in one place, such great service. Aric pulled up, someone was there to bring a wheelchair for me. I never really paid attention to those people standing outside that seemed more like doormen at a hotel. As I sit in the lobby waiting for Aric to park to take me to my appointment (we declined the door-to-door service) I listened to beautiful music on the grand piano. Someone old guy tried to talk to me, but I decided that it was not worth turning my head and opening my eyes and possibly throwing up. I could feel everyone staring at me. I know I looked horrible, I just pulled my hat down lower and tried not to move. We checked in at the ENT counter, and then sat down in a corner. Aric said I looked like the sickest person there. Hurray! It was excruciating sitting up, the vertigo was terrible, I just wanted my bed. I still hadn't opened my eyes much since Saturday, so I just clutched my barf bucket we took from the ER hoping I wouldn't need it out in the lobby. I just wanted to get this over with. We finally got in and talked to our resident friends. One of our friends, Doug H., just patted my head at the sight of how pathetic I looked. To sum up the conversation, the Doctors and I decided no steroids at first because of the baby. If I didn't get better, than maybe more tests, rethink meds. They thought it would be about two weeks for me to be all better, such that I would be driving- I knew that I would have to be all better before I drove, the people on the road don't need to suffer too. A month tops. But the likelihood of that seemed impossible at the time.
So for about a week Aric ditched medical school and took care of me full-time. He feed me in bed, wiped the crumbs off my face, brushed my teeth, and seriously had to drag me to the bathroom. It was a very humbling experience. Not one I would be happy to repeat. But he was awesome. I never had to ask for anything he always anticipated what I needed. Thanks Aric you are truly amazing. All those muscles aren't just for show. Brecklen and Hannah would sometimes join in a feed me too. I didn't know if I wanted them to do that, I think it ended up being good for Brecklen, he was so sweet. Thanks to our wonderful, wonderful friends, Aric was able to take care of me and the house without the kids during the day. It was so nice to not have to worry about them. I knew they were having a much better time at their friends houses then they would have had at home. Thanks to Darin and Beth, Lydia, Janee, Jen G., Ann, and Tonya. You guys are amazing friends and without you our family would have fallen apart. Thanks for the dinners and watching our kids ALL day every day that crazy week. You came to our rescue! I am your babysitter for life, or for as long as we live in Rochester.
After a week things had not progressed quickly at all. The vertigo was as strong and fast as ever, I still couldn't walk anywhere, except stumble to the bathroom on my own and feed myself. It's ok to laugh, it's funny, but it that was big progress for me. We decided that we had used our friends for too long and it was time to call in the reinforcements, my mother. I wanted me friends to still like me when this was all over. So we called my mom Friday, and she was here Saturday. Aric couldn't have been more relieved. He was, I'm sure, exhausted from a long week of taking care of everything, and truly needed a break. He had medical school finals coming up next week and needed to pass so that the med school couldn't complain that he ditched class.
It was quite an adjustment for the kids though. Hannah rebelled alot, didn't want my mom to do anything for her, but my mom just plugged along like it didn't phase her. Although Aric kept the house spotless, I have to say it was cleaner then when I'm in charge, my mom had a weeks worth of laundry to do.
That second week I was making short trips to the living room so my kids wouldn't forget they had a mom. I was reading, although it was hard to focus. My vision is still off, everything is sort of blurry. But then it is hard to focus when the world is spinning. It was getting frustrating because the doctors expected me to be well and driving by now. I have only made it outside of my house to go to see the doctor, and then only being carried to the car, and by a wheelchair to get around. Not on my own two feet yet. I could stumble around my house, with the use of walls. At the end of my second week I visit my Obstetrician. She's like my girlfriend, so it was nice to see her. She thought baby would be okay, but has never treated anyone with Vestibular Neuritis. Aric couldn't find anything published on the subject either. That didn't make me feel good. So it's pretty uncommon to get this at all, and even rarer, perhaps never happened (or most likely no has ever taken the time to publish) that anyone as fortunate as myself has comedown with this while pregnant. I really do have incredible luck(for the unfortunate). It was interesting going back to the Mayo Clinic in a wheelchair. I didn't get to see anyone staring at me last time, but this time people would look at me and I could see what they were thinking. Why is she in a wheelchair? What's wrong with her? Everyone moves out of the way for you and gives you the look of pity. It was quite a social experiment. I told Aric his med school class should do this to see what it's really like to be on the other side of things. Aric had his own fun. He kept flipping my chair up and when he took me outside to sit and wait for him he asked me if I needed a smoke. I of course laughed because it was so random and declined. There were a few people outside with us and am sure were wondering why this pregnant girl sitting in a wheelchair would dare to smoke. Good thing she didn't, no wonder she's in a wheelchair! I just had to laugh because first of all I don't smoke, just in case any of you doubted, but I was picturing what it would look like if I did.
My OB doc approved steroids. Said baby would be fine. So we contacted ENT and they wrote the prescription. Things didn't get better. Actually they got worse, so we started to worry that it could be something more serious. They kicked up the steroids a notch and that seemed to do the trick, after about a week. Slowly things started to finally progress. I was able to move around more, but not quite able to go outside and walk around. During this time Hannah came down with the stomach flu. That was really fun. I couldn't help out much, but Aric and my mom had to clean up lots of throw up. I was REALLY glad my mom was here to help me with that.
By the beginning of my third week, I was going stir crazy. I thought I knew what cabin fever meant living through many Minnesota winters. I was ready to jump out the window by this time just to be outside. I really just wanted to go outside and run around with my kids. Aric had a Chief Dinner coming up and it was my goal to be there. This is pretty much a graduation of the 6 year Oral Surgery program. It is not something to miss. I had missed out on alot these past few weeks and wanted a life again. So I went to the mall with my mom and the kids to go looking for some flat shoes so I atleast wouldn't fall on my face while trying to look presentable to Aric's work friends and colleagues. This was the first time in 3 weeks I walked outside of my house on my own to feet. It was momentous, at least to me. It was not really fun being at the mall, though. Turning around and looking for my kids all the time was very nauseating. I was so tired! I guess sitting in your bed doesn't do wonders for your circulation. We had a fun time at the Chief Dinner, and I didn't fall or make a fool of myself. I just tried to sit as much as possible. It was really nice to get out of the house and have a great meal too!
Well, then things took a turn for the worse. Talk about kicking someone when they are really down. I really love the kiddie play area in the mall, but it is full of germs, and sometimes we get really sick after playing there. This was no exception. I don't know what it is about Rochester, but illnesses seem to move through this city like a wave. You just have to wait for your turn to get hit. Early Monday morning (1:30am) Brecklen and I got hit with the stomach flu. I heard Brecklen at the top of the stairs so I came up the stairs to see what was the matter and stepped in his vomit. I took him to the bathroom to help him throw up more, went to clean the other vomit up that I stepped in, while seriously trying to not throw up myself. I didn't want to clean that up too. I was still in my "drunken" stupor of dizziness and not able to move around well, this took alot of effort. I go get him settled after ripping his gross sheets off and then I make a bed on the floor in his room for me. Trash buckets for both of us. We both threw up about every half hour for many hours. Brecklen eventually stopped throwing up, but not me. I kept throwing up into the day. Aric had to actually go into work that day, but thankfully my mom was there to take care of us all and saved the day again. Brecklen just sat around and didn't eat anything, but I was on my death bed. It was bad. I couldn't eat or drink and was getting worse by the hour. I layed in my bed all day, not doing a thing and I couldn't sleep. By the time Aric go home he was worried, not much worries him. He was about to take me to the ER again to get IV fluids, but he would just try one thing. I had one more lingual Zofran ( my saving grace). You just put it under your tongue and it dissolves. It helps keep you from throwing up so you can eat. Aric was able to keep me from throwing up my water by lots of distraction, and in time I was able to hold water and food down. That was close, we made it out of the woods. It set me back a bit on my recovery as a whole, but I was glad to be over the flu. So here I am a few days later doing better. Today I think I am going to try to go outside with my kids and walk around. My mom is going to be here another week. I hope I will be all better by then, but I think it's just going to take a long time for me to feel completely normal. But at least for the time I can walk outside with my kids and watch them run around. I don't want to miss out on them growing up.
Thank you to so many who helped me and also prayed for me during this time. It was much appreciated, and your kindness won't be forgotten.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Raccoon!
We had quite a strange night Saturday. Brecklen, Hannah, and I were watching a movie before bed and just as it was about to end I saw something moving in the corner of my eye coming down the stairs and stop about 5 feet from us. It moved like a cat and a thought to myself , how did a cat get into our house? Well it wasn't until I really looked at the animal I realized it was not a cat, but a raccoon! I screamed so loud I am sure that Aric thought someone died. This thing was huge, about 2 feet long. This animal was clearly just as scared as me. As I was screaming bloody murder Aric heard me say something about a raccoon and ran into the room to catch it. It freaked out and ran across our living room up a shelf , knocked down a picture on the wall, fell to the ground, ran 
across the room again right past Aric, ran down the hall and into our study. Aric slammed the door to trap the thing in.Meanwhile I picked up the kids and sprinted upstairs to our bedroom so that the kids would be safe. Thank goodness the animal ran to our study which is in our basement. Aric just opened the window from the outside and the raccoon ran out, of course he had to climb over everything first. I am glad it didn't take long for the raccoon to leave the house. He left quite a mess though. I had no idea that they are such climbers!
As I ran upstairs to take the kids to safety I noticed that the garage door was ajar. When things calmed down I looked into the garage and saw paw prints all over my car. And he made quite a mess of the garage as well. It had been raining off and on all day and he must have come into our garage during the day and got trapped when we shut the garage door. He obviously managed to push the door open which probably wasn't hard since it wasn't closed tight, what are the chances of that? We were all a little freaked out and we decided to investigate the upstairs to see if he made a mess up there too. Brecklen thought it must have slept in his bed, so we looked in his room and I was relieved to see that it did not appear that our little visitor was there. I think he is still convinced that the raccoon was in his room. Poor Hannah. She kinda freaked out at my reaction and started crying. While we were looking around the house for signs of poop, or hair, Hannah just Kept saying "Raccoon chasing me", but it was so cute and hard to not laugh because it sounded like "accoon tasing me." We tried to make it less scary for her and had a stuffed animal that looked like a raccoon to give to her. We decided to name him Rocky the Raccoon. I don't think they had nightmares.
I was partly worried there might be another one trapped in the house and it would just pop out at me any moment. Thank goodness no sign of anymore animals, and no poop anywhere. I really did not want to clean up any poop from an animal. As it is I have a hard time not throwing up because of "morning" sickness when my own child poops , let alone a raccoon.
We didn't think that the raccoon went upstairs, but the next day I found paw prints on the side of our fridge, and there was animal hair on the top of the fridge. I kinda panicked. How long was it in our house? It was so quiet, we never knew it was there. I was about to take the kids upstairs when the raccoon decided to come downstairs, what if we had scared it coming up stairs and it really flipped out and attacked one of my kids? What if it decided to go to sleep in my bed and I woke up with some furry thing next to me? All the craziest scenarios went through my mind. We really did get lucky, it was not rabid, or angry, just curious and scared. It approached us instead of us stumbling upon it and feeling the need to defend itself. Well that's not something that happens everyday, in our house atleast.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
It's a Girl!!!
We found out we are having a healthy baby girl. I am still due September 19th (I'm 20 weeks right now). Aric was able to be at the ultrasound. When they told us we were having a girl we looked at each other with joy and terror. Joy because of course we are so excited that the baby is healthy and it is going to be a girl. And terror because it is going to be a girl! It was exciting to she her moving around. It always makes it more real to see fingers and toes.Brecklen really wanted to have a boy, and even named the baby Bennett. I can just see the trouble the girls are going to get into! Hannah is so independent and has a strong personality, I am a little worried about that times two! Brecklen is so sweet to Hannah, and she tortures him at times. No wonder he wanted a boy. But they truly do love each other to death.
When we got home we told the kids we had a surprise for them. I got an "it's a girl" and "it's a boy" balloon for the kids so I would be prepared for either one. We gathered the kids together and brought out the girl balloon and told them "IT'S A GIRL!" We were very excited to tell them, but our smiles and excitement took quite a dive when Brecklen threw himself on the couch and started to cry. Aric and I just looked at each other. We felt terrible. We didn't think he would react so strongly. Aric was prepared. Thank goodness. He brought out a special present for Brecklen. Silver Iron Man. Aric had given Brecklen the regular Iron Man a couple days prior so he could take him to the Iron Man movie and get Brecklen excited about it. Brecklen saw that there was a silver Iron man and thought he was really cool. Aric saved the day. Brecklen was feeling much better after getting his new silver Iron Man. We told Brecklen how much fun it was going to be that he and Dad get to go hiking and fishing and do all sorts of cool things together, just the two of them.
Hannah was much easier to please. She just wanted the balloon. She doesn't really quite get it yet, but was happy to know that she is going to have a sister, a Belle. Belle is her favorite princess. Well I guess there's no reason now to hold out on buying all the princess dresses and stuff now. This kind of validates some of my dresses that I just HAD to have for Hannah. Thanks Janee for reminding me that I get to buy my girls cute matching outfits. I can't believe this thought never occurred me! I can't WAIT to go shopping. Since this is a terrible hobby of mine, and I have been so good lately, I may have a relapse. But atleast my girls will look cute, and match!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
The next President?
I was listening to Minnesota public radio in the car since I did not, for once, have the kids with me, and thought I would actually brush up on the news. I am typically the last person to know about anything unless it is the highlighted story on CNN.com. I usually find out news when Aric comes home from having common adult interaction that I hear occurs when you go to work, and then I tell him my news for the day, like Curious George created yet another disaster, or that Dora finally found the city of lost toys and brought all the toys back to all the sad boys and girls. I truly wish she could have found Little Bear #1 and 2, because that would make my life much easier. Back to my point...
I happened to catch a very interesting interview on MPR. This guy has BREAKING NEWS as he said it! Take it for what it is, I laughed the whole way home because it was absurd, crazy, and it started to make sense. Whether it is true or not, no one will ever know...
So per Top Secret information that this guy received from a nameless source high up in the Clinton campaign (no kidding) in a parking lot. This sounds like the beginning of a movie. Hillary is trying to LOSE the presidential election!! What? But it gets better. Obama and McCain are in on it too. Not one of the top candidates wants to win the presidential election. Why? Because as they said the next president is a sucker and will have to mop up a huge mess. But apparently things can't get too much worse (let's see the peak of the rising gas prices before they go that far) and that whoever will be president in the next election in 2012 will be able to swoop in when things are on an upswing and make real changes, and REALLY be the hero. So this is Hillary's plan, to win the 2012 election! They didn't go into detail for Obama. McCain doesn't really want to win either because the Republicans want to hand the mess off to the Democrats. What is America coming to!
They threw some names out there for the next president- Nader, and a guy named Paul. When I looked him up it sounds like it's Ron Paul from Iowa. But I don't know anything about him. I am really not into politics, but this next election is a big one. When I told Aric all this as I ran into the house STILL laughing he said "Isn't it more heroic to win the election and try to make changes now? " Apparently not. It is sad that IF this has even an ounce of truth to it that no one is excited to step up to the plate and take on the challenge. That one would more rather come in a be known as a good president when the economy is on the upswing, than an OK president or a crappy president just trying to do what they can. I just found this piece of information startling and just couldn't keep my mouth shut. This information was just way too out there. So if anything, this is to be thought provoking, and maybe even spark a conversation. Craig I would love to know what you think since you just love this stuff and know the world of politics infinitely better than me. It will be interesting to see how this election turns out.
I happened to catch a very interesting interview on MPR. This guy has BREAKING NEWS as he said it! Take it for what it is, I laughed the whole way home because it was absurd, crazy, and it started to make sense. Whether it is true or not, no one will ever know...
So per Top Secret information that this guy received from a nameless source high up in the Clinton campaign (no kidding) in a parking lot. This sounds like the beginning of a movie. Hillary is trying to LOSE the presidential election!! What? But it gets better. Obama and McCain are in on it too. Not one of the top candidates wants to win the presidential election. Why? Because as they said the next president is a sucker and will have to mop up a huge mess. But apparently things can't get too much worse (let's see the peak of the rising gas prices before they go that far) and that whoever will be president in the next election in 2012 will be able to swoop in when things are on an upswing and make real changes, and REALLY be the hero. So this is Hillary's plan, to win the 2012 election! They didn't go into detail for Obama. McCain doesn't really want to win either because the Republicans want to hand the mess off to the Democrats. What is America coming to!
They threw some names out there for the next president- Nader, and a guy named Paul. When I looked him up it sounds like it's Ron Paul from Iowa. But I don't know anything about him. I am really not into politics, but this next election is a big one. When I told Aric all this as I ran into the house STILL laughing he said "Isn't it more heroic to win the election and try to make changes now? " Apparently not. It is sad that IF this has even an ounce of truth to it that no one is excited to step up to the plate and take on the challenge. That one would more rather come in a be known as a good president when the economy is on the upswing, than an OK president or a crappy president just trying to do what they can. I just found this piece of information startling and just couldn't keep my mouth shut. This information was just way too out there. So if anything, this is to be thought provoking, and maybe even spark a conversation. Craig I would love to know what you think since you just love this stuff and know the world of politics infinitely better than me. It will be interesting to see how this election turns out.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Boobie Protectors
I just love the things Brecklen says! A couple of days ago Brecklen and I were in the bathroom brushing our teeth and he noticed my bra hanging up. He says, "Mom, what's that? Is that your boobie shield. Your boobie protectors." I just started laughing, but not too hard so he doesn't feel like I'm laughing at him. I kinda had a feeling of what he meant and I said "Yeah, it's like Wonder Woman's arm braclets, but for my boobs." Then we started talking about superheros and how my boobie shields save me from bad guys. I never knew that I would know so much about superheros in my life, but thinks to Aric and Brecklen's obsession with superheros, I do. And you know what? I love it.
- Wonder Boob
- Wonder Boob
Hannah's 2nd birthday, April 5 2008
It was actually a beautiful spring day, the first day of 2008 it was sunny and NOT freezing, but 60 degrees. Aric had an Oral surgery Anatomy disecting class ALL saturday. I love how his oral surgery program dictates our lives. Do I sound bitter? Aric got to see Hannah atleast before he was gone and we opened some presents. So for the rest of the day she kept asking for presents and would just say "more presents?" Brecklen, Hannah, and I hung out in the morning and went to lunch at Noodles, since Hannah loves pasta. Then we headed over to Mayo Clinic to crash their Anatomy lecture and have some cake and ice cream with all of Aric's fellow residents. Hannah was just dying to touch the cake and shed a few tears in the process. All she wanted to do was hold her precious princesses on the cake. Aric got to skip out on the afternoon Anatomy disecting and we just played outside our house enjoying the sun.
Anna is Hannah's closest friend and they are SO cute together, so Lydia, Jeff, and their kids Tommy and Anna came over for dinner that night. The kids had fun playing, and Jeff , Lydia, Aric, and I just laughed the night away. Hannah blew out her candles for yet another time. I just love a local bakery called Daubes and Hannah picked out the cutest "under the sea" cake with fish all over it. What is it about cakes that look so good that kids just have to stick their finger in it? That's just what Hannah did. On her first birthday she actually stuck her face right in the cake to take a big bite, so were making improvement. I think she had a fun day, so that's all that matters!
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